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Akhir-akhir ni, rasa macam lost sangat. Tak tahu nak cakap macam mana. Banyak sangat benda yang jadi. Semuanya mengejut. Semuanya terlalu cepat jadi. Hmm. Sampai rasa dah tak boleh jadi diri sendiri. Dah tak macam Siti Rahmah yang dulu. Siti Rahmah yang sentiasa boleh happy kan diri sendiri walaupun sedih, walau jatuh terduduk macam mana sekalipun. 

Entah. Mungkin banyak sangat dosa kot. Sebab tu jadi macam ni. HAHA. 

Bukan tak cuba nak diluah, tp takde siapa yang faham. Sebab orang lain pun nak kita faham dia. Semua orang yang ada kat sekeliling aku pun makin lama makin menjauh. Takpelah. Mungkin aku yang dah banyak berubah. 

Rahmah. Belajar hidup berdikari tak payah depends kat orang lain. Sakit macam mana pun tahan sendiri je. 

Moga aku terus kuat ya Allah. Aamiin. 

Mr Doraemon

I've been thinking a lot about us these days. Haha supposedly focus untuk final exam, tapi otak ni melayang fikir pasal lain. 

Emm. How should i said this eh? I never expect this to happen. SERIOUSLY. Sebab daripada mula kenal pun, memang niat nak kawan je. Takde niat nak lebih daripada tu. But now.. aku dah termakan ayat sendiri. Dulu acah2 friendzone kan kau sampai ke sudah, kau cakap ape pun aku tak percaya. Tapi sekarang? HAHA. Entahlah 

Encik Doraemon. You still my best friend. The first guy yg jadi best friend aku. Honestly, i look down at you because i know all your weaknesses and your history. I believe i deserve someone better than you, and that's why i keep rejecting you. But once i really try to know you.. I realize.. that you are not as bad as i thought. Jahatnya aku trlalu memandang kekurangan kau sebelum ni. 

You're a good guy, a good son, a good brother to your siblings, and a very good friend for me. 

Thank you, for taking a good care of me, for being such a caring and loving person for me. I'm glad having you as my friend. Thank you sebab banyak sabar dengan perangai aku yg pelik2, yg selalu emo, yang suka marah tiba2. 

As long as kau boleh sabar dengan aku, i will do the same thing for you inshaAllah. I'm looking forward for our future relationship, maybe. You should start proceeding to the next step. hahaa Kbaii. 

Thanks

Thanks 
That's all i can say
I know you're trying so hard 
You care about me, you were there for me 
You make me smile and happy again

It's just.. I'm afraid,
i don't wanna rush everything 
If it was meant to be, i will happen
But if not, we'll just stay as a friend
I hope nothing will change between us 

Thanks for the wishes and post.. 
Thank you very much 

Sayang kau jugak, kawan :)

Should or shouldn't

Should i give you the chance?
But there will be no way of turning back