Kita

Dear awak, 

Terasa masih jauh perjalanan kita, banyak lagi yang belum kita capai dalam hidup ni. Masih ada tanggungjawab yang kita perlu laksanakan, pada diri kita, mak ayah & keluarga. Yang paling penting pada Allah & agama kita. Saya bersyukur kenal awak. Terima kasih sebab hadir dalam hidup saya & membahagiakan saya, menegur saya bila saya salah, pujuk saya bila saya marah, mengalah dengan saya. Saya hargai setiap awak yang awak buat :) 

Pejam celik pejam celik, sebenarnya banyak jugak dugaan yang kita dah tempuh. HAHA. Dalam tempoh ni entah berapa kali kita gaduh baik gaduh baik, perang sana sini, gunung berapi puting beliung semua ada. Ngehngeh. Tapi ni dugaan sebelum kahwin. Dugaan lepas kahwin lagi lah mencabar. Semoga kita dapat jadikan orang2 disekeliling kita sebagai contoh & pengajaran untuk masa akan datang. Kita belajar daripada pengalaman hidup diorang k? Hehee. Jadikan masa yang ada ni sebagai tempoh untuk kita perbaiki dan persiapkan diri kita. InshaAllah. 

Takda sebab pun tulis blog ni. Saja je sebab lama sangat tak menulis. Kbaii

Sayang

Kalau sayang, jaga lah perasaan orang yang kau sayang. Jangan tipu. Jangan sekali-kali. 

Jujur lah walau kebenaran tu sepahit hempedu. Aku akan cuba faham. 

Aku tak mintak harta benda, tak.. Tak pernah aku mintak kau berikan aku macam-macam. 

Cukup sekadar kau jujur, kau faham aku, and ada waktu susah senang aku. Sepertimana kau layan aku, macam tu jugak aku akan layan kau. 

Aku terima kekurangan kau seadanya. 

Tapi tolong, tolong jangan buat hati aku macam ni. Aku penat. Sungguh aku penat :'( 

Kalau dah tak sayang, cakap kau tak sayang. Kalau kau tak suka, cakap kau tak suka. Kalau kau benci, cakap kau benci.

I will go. 

Tapi tolong jangan sakitkan hati aku lagi. Aku tak kuat. Aku tak mampu. 

Get well soon

I don't know what to say. 

Things change. 

But the things that's happening around me change too fast. 

I feel like i'm alone. I know I always have some people i can talk to. People that i can trust. But they can never replace my mom. She is still the best among all. She's my best motivator, my role model, my best friend. 

Lately, mak tak berapa sihat. She's not like what she used to be. I'm worried about her healthy. Well, it's time to learn to stand on my own. Roda hidup. It's my turn to take care, advise and pay my attention to her. Things are hard for me right now. I try to act like i'm okay, but it bothers me a lot. I can't imagine my world without her. 

Yelah. Mungkin selama ni terlalu bergantung pada mak. Semua benda tanya mak, semua benda mak decide, semua benda cerita dekat mak, tanya pendapat mak. Sikit-sikit mak.. mak.. Hahaa. Anak mak sungguh kan? 

Even though i try to find someone to rely on to, to talk to, to ask anything, but still. It's not the same. The feeling, the love is not the same. Hahaa. The power of mom's love nak compare dengan orang lain memang tak sama. 

Mom, get well soon. I need you. I miss you. I really miss our moments. Love you. 

Mr Doraemon

I've been thinking a lot about us these days. Haha supposedly focus untuk final exam, tapi otak ni melayang fikir pasal lain. 

Emm. How should i said this eh? I never expect this to happen. SERIOUSLY. Sebab daripada mula kenal pun, memang niat nak kawan je. Takde niat nak lebih daripada tu. But now.. aku dah termakan ayat sendiri. Dulu acah2 friendzone kan kau sampai ke sudah, kau cakap ape pun aku tak percaya. Tapi sekarang? HAHA. Entahlah 

Encik Doraemon. You still my best friend. The first guy yg jadi best friend aku. Honestly, i look down at you because i know all your weaknesses and your history. I believe i deserve someone better than you, and that's why i keep rejecting you. But once i really try to know you.. I realize.. that you are not as bad as i thought. Jahatnya aku trlalu memandang kekurangan kau sebelum ni. 

You're a good guy, a good son, a good brother to your siblings, and a very good friend for me. 

Thank you, for taking a good care of me, for being such a caring and loving person for me. I'm glad having you as my friend. Thank you sebab banyak sabar dengan perangai aku yg pelik2, yg selalu emo, yang suka marah tiba2. 

As long as kau boleh sabar dengan aku, i will do the same thing for you inshaAllah. I'm looking forward for our future relationship, maybe. You should start proceeding to the next step. hahaa Kbaii. 

Thanks

Thanks 
That's all i can say
I know you're trying so hard 
You care about me, you were there for me 
You make me smile and happy again

It's just.. I'm afraid,
i don't wanna rush everything 
If it was meant to be, i will happen
But if not, we'll just stay as a friend
I hope nothing will change between us 

Thanks for the wishes and post.. 
Thank you very much 

Sayang kau jugak, kawan :)

Lost

Alhamdulillah. 

I feel blessed.

For all the matters that happened around me. For all those people who always there to make me smile. For all the happy and hurtful memories. For all the love I've received. 

But there's also a moment when i feel nothing is actually belongs to me. Nothing. I feel devastated. Or maybe.. lost. 

I try to search the light in my inner soul. I asked myself. 

"What do you really want? What do you need the most? What things will make you feel calm? Can it make you feel blessed?" 

When i sit there on my sajadah. Trying to find my soul. I found the answer. 

I have Allah. And i am never alone.

Ending of Asasi

Finally. My life as a student of TESL Foundation has ended. Many challenges, experiences and memories that I've faced. Alhamdulillah. Thanks to my lecturers ( Madam Ruqayya, Madam Maftuhah, Madam Zarina, Madam Roslinda, Madam Leele, Miss Fatiha, Mr Adlan, Miss Azy and Mr Faeiz) *Okay semua nak list kan. Muehehe* 

I'm gonna miss my friends, best friends and TESL Family. We laughed, cried and fight one another. But that will remained as my best memories ever. Please don't forget me :D Just a short message for you guys, please forgive me for all my wrong doing and please halalkan segala apa yang pernah anda bagi :') 

Sometimes.

Sometimes i just have to FORGET
Sometimes i just have to FORGIVE
Sometimes i just have to LEARN
Sometimes i just have to ACCEPT
Sometimes i just have to LET GO
Sometimes i just have to TRY
Sometimes i just have to LOVE
Sometimes i just have to HATE

Sometimes.. Just sometimes.. 

I don't know which one I have to CHOOSE. 

Cupcake !

I found this picture. Cute isn't it ? Yummmehhh :D