Don't know

I'm confused. I don't know what I'm suppose to do and act. I don't know how to coax people. Then what should i do? Hmm. Maybe I should learn slowly. =.=

Pain.

Why i keep thinking about the past? This is not good for us. But i can't deny it. Its like every pain that i felt before this is such a waste. Because you don't even remember it. I memorize the date, the time and every detail of it. But you? Urghh. Just let it be. 

Choice.

I just went to my school this morning. I feel like, OMG, i miss my school life so much. I met my teachers and juniors. Suddenly, all the memories keep playing back in my mind. Ya Allah, how I'm gonna get rid of this feeling? :( I took my SPM's certificate and lcci. After that i started interviewing my English teacher for my assignment. Just simple questions regarding their profession. Asking about their challenges, ups and downs and advice for a future teacher. I asked for their opinion about the teaching profession itself, because i love to teach. Its my dream since i was born. Puiii. Tipu tu. Hehe. InsyaAllah, where there's a will, there's a way. I realised that, to place myself at where I am right now is not that easy. I've gone for the written and spoken test. I need to take Muet and Medsi test. At the same time I must maintain my CGPA. Yahhh, seems easy for you but if you take this course then you will now. Grrrr. Thinking back about my future, no doubt, i still choose to teach. It doesn't matter kindergarten, primary, secondary or university. Its just my passion, i love to teach. *Get ready kiddo, because Im gonna be a very strict teacher. Haha. *BOOOO myself. May Allah ease everything. This is my choice right now. But Allah know the best. Do pray for me. xoxo :D 

Problems.

Assalamualaikum. 
Problems do come in our life. Its our choice whether to face or to ignore. In my case, i feel like i wanna ignore them, at first. But then i keep thinking and thinking about it non-stop. I can't even get enough sleep you know? Maybe this is just me. I pretend to ignore, but actually i think too much. I'm not a kind of person who will ignore people's feeling. Everything i do there must a reason behind it. And maybe i am too afraid to speak the truth? To say what a feel about them. I don't want to lose my friend. They've make me happy, been there when i needed the most. I won't forget that. I really hope i can make things right again. Let me explain, please. I love my friends. Thank you for making my life more meaningful :)) 

New Determination

Urghh. I feel like wanna scream out loud! This semester is so tough. I need to do double things in one time. My time is too pack and i cant even really think about other people. I'm so sorry if i hurt people around me. For this time being, i'm begging for your tolerance and understanding. I know i get mad easily and say random things to you. I will try to improve myself slowly. InsyaAllah.

2013

This year, 2013. A year with a good start. Alhamdulillah. But not everything that we planned will run smoothly. I'm glad to have parents and friends that are very supportive and understanding. I will never give up. InsyaAllah :)